I Hate Humira

So far Humira is working for me. But at the same time I hate it. HATE IT.

I had to go out of town for work again this week. And of course it’s Humira week. I was going to have my sister give me my injection Sunday before I left. But of course I had a head cold. And I wasn’t sure if I could take the Humira injection because of that.

So I called my GI and got the go a head for the Humira. Which made me anxious because I hate giving myself the injection. I’ve been having M do it for months.

When I had to give myself the injection last night I ended up just laying on the bed in my hotel room trying to give it to myself. I had to call M to get some moral support and I just ended up crying for 10 minutes. And I had to psych myself up to do it. I told myself it wouldn’t be so bad. I had a flu shot last Thursday that hurt and left my arm sore for days. This is just discomfort for like 5 minutes. It’ll be ok, Kenzie. It’ll be ok.

Well, it wasn’t ok. I ended up fucking up my injection. Again. I think I squeezed the injection site so hard I squeezed all of the medication out. Either that or I pulled the needle out after I heard the injector click without realizing it. I even made sure I counted slowly.

And after I realized that happened I just cried even more. I was mad at myself for fucking up the injection. I did so well the first two injections that I did and then I just couldn’t do it anymore.

So I’ve been thinking about that a lot since last night. I feel so stupid for getting so anxious and upset about giving myself an injection.

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2 thoughts on “I Hate Humira

  1. Humira is the worst. I was on it for about a year and absolutely hated having to give myself the injections. It usually consisted of me sitting there with the pen in my hand for 30 minutes too scared to just do it! So don’t beat yourself up over it, it’s totally normal to not want to stab yourself with a needle! Fortunately I was able to get off the med eventually. Good luck, I hope it works out for you 🙂

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