Wandering? Wandering through life? The internet? My head?
Lost? Lost in thoughts? Dreams? Reality?
It’s hard to say where I have been in the last year. All of the above really. Things at work got hard with a coworker retiring. Like ridiculously hard. Working too much over time, in too much pain and dealing with too much stress to function kind of hard. But I think I came out the other side with my sanity sort of intact. I keep looking over my shoulder waiting for it to happen again. It was such a struggle, and I almost didn’t make it with my sanity intact. It was to the point I was debating on finding another job. But I made it.
And then I felt like I was screaming into a void when it came to raising awareness for Indeterminate Colitis. But trying to deal with that on top of work and planning a wedding got very hard(I really wasn’t in a good place this past year, I was pretty negative and very salty about the whole situation). I was putting a lot of time into blogging, and not enough into myself. Especially while working a full time job that at the time was sucking the life out of me.
Around this time last year was the last time I actually wrote a blog post. It was for Colitis Ninja and it was on this very topic. Feeling burnt out and everything. I ended up taking a long hiatus and took as much me time as I could with everything else going on.
I had realized at the time that not all IBDs were created equally. And I was tired of dealing with it and fighting the system. But I realized this week that maybe me and some other people raising a fuss over the fact that there were options missing for Indeterminte Colitis patients may be making some headway.
When I was making the #MyIBD info graphic for the Crohn’s and Colitis Foundation this week I found out that there was an option for people with Indeterminate Colitis this year. Which is pretty amazing. It’s a step in the right direction. I can now share my actual story instead of having to write a comment about what I actually have.
Anyway, I think I’m back. I’m still navigating my feelings with everything. But I do kind of miss blogging. It was my place on the internet to share my story and vent when I need too.
I’m not sure how often I’m going to post, but I’ll try to be back soon.